HEAVENPLACE

2025-07-27 09:24 PM: Last night I had a dream where I went to some random person's house with my partner, I think it was their friend. This young kid was tasked with the errand of doing something under the porch- like fixing a plank or something because he wasn't old and achey like the rest us

I thought: you know what, that's screwed up, I'll go under there with him and make sure everything goes alright. I crawl under and immediately I notice that I'm surrounded by hundreds of black widows and recluses and spiderwebs, but I keep crawling, which is not like me at all, I'm a huge arachnophobe.

Just to pull myself along the ground I punched through spider nests for traction while they crawl all over me and into my ears, nose, and mouth. I had no agency over my body, but it propelled itself forward, regardless.

I don't think we actually ended up even getting our original task done because I was to big to fit where we needed to go. I had to slowly crawl back out as these spiders crawled inside of me. Eventually I returned home as if nothing happened.

I go into the basement and in every corner there's recluses and nests of hundreds more.

I turn a corner blindly, distracted by a nest and I walk into one face-first. It crawls into my mouth and I shoot up awake and I slap my mouth, trying to get it out before I realize it was a dream.

I want to know what it means. Why did I develop arachnophobia in the halfway through my life? I want to remember.